Don't be to hard on yourself, this parenting stuff is really tough. I can say that as my kids our now in their 20s and it still is not easy. Sometimes you just wish you could wrap them up in your arms and protect them from all the hurt, unfortunately or fortunately we cant- all we can do is the best we can do and love them with all our heart. I still remember the day my daughter found out about Santa Claus, and its been 15yrs.- the funny part is, she doesn't, they do get over it, probably way before we do! Take care, and Happy Easter!