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You all have been so supportive of Tudor and me over the years, through our joy and sorrows, and even if it's the internet, you are our friends and I feel it's only fair to share this with you as you all have shared yourselves with us and one another.
Ever since the assault in 2006, and especially over the past year, Tud has been trying to drink himself to death. (I just discovered on Tuesday that he's been hiding bottles in the house.) He is very close to succeeding in his attempt to "check out".
He is in detox which is affecting his heart. Cardiologists are now being consulted. When I saw him on Tuesday it was a man I didn't know. Almost not even a human being, rather, some creature out of science fiction. It was horrifying.
I am meeting with one of the physicians at 3:00 today.
Please do not judge him, or me. Any one of us at any time in our life could find ourselves in such despondency that ending it all just seems to be the least painful way out for all involved.

Ever since the assault in 2006, and especially over the past year, Tud has been trying to drink himself to death. (I just discovered on Tuesday that he's been hiding bottles in the house.) He is very close to succeeding in his attempt to "check out".
He is in detox which is affecting his heart. Cardiologists are now being consulted. When I saw him on Tuesday it was a man I didn't know. Almost not even a human being, rather, some creature out of science fiction. It was horrifying.
I am meeting with one of the physicians at 3:00 today.
Please do not judge him, or me. Any one of us at any time in our life could find ourselves in such despondency that ending it all just seems to be the least painful way out for all involved.