I just wanted to thank you all, my friends, for understanding. I am so glad I have people I can come to with grief. It means a lot.
Today really caught me by surprise. Last year was not this bad. I was in the process of trying to wangle Kevin into adopting Simon about this time last year, so I suppose that softened the blow a bit. Simon came to us three days after the anniversary of Crash's death. And with Simon came such peace in my heart. He was my healer.
I don't know why it hit me so hard today. It probably didn't help that I kept listening to my "Bread" CD. (Who remembers Bread?) Sigh. There are so many things that I hope Crash knows and understands.
Anyway, I had a very good long cry on the way home. Now I am so tired. But I will feel better tomorrow.
Thanks again, JL friends.
I am having a hard day.
It took me a while to figure out why I feel so blue today. Then it hit me: Today is the day, two years ago, that Crash passed away. I remembered it earlier this week, but thought I had forgotten, until I remembered again while I was out at lunch. If that makes any sense. It's like my subconscious knew what day it was when I woke up, but took a while to relay the message to my conscious mind.
I will never forget the date. There was a stupid blinking digital date and time thing on the desk at the vet's. I watched it click away every minute for the entire hour he was in surgery. All the while thinking, I am never going to forget this day. :'(
It's just hard today. I'm sure tomorrow will be better. I do still miss him.
Connie and "The Boys":
Angus, Yellow Lab, CGC, RE, CD
Simon, d.b.a. Flat Coated Retriever, CGC, RE, CD
Gone ahead, but forever in my heart:
Crash, Pit Bull x Rottweiler x Golden Retriever
We never forget and it's ok to be blue. Tomorrow will be better for sure.
Hang in there.
take your time
Oh Connie.... ((((((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))
I'm so sorry, Connie. (((hugs)))
Brenda, Sam & Bodie
So sorry you're hurting.
I'm sorry Connie hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.
I'm sorry, Connie. RIP, Crash.
Get a big hug from Angus and Simon. Whenever I feel down about the lost ones, I think that if Teddy hadn't passed, I wouldn't have Mitzi, and if Kasa hadn't passed, I wouldn't have Judy. It doesn't take away the sadness, but it is comforting.